Kelly Tyler Olynyk

yep, this post is about my absolute favorite Celtic ever (YES I said Celtic lol!! as I'll never refer to him as anything else) Kelly Olynyk (pronounced oh-lin-ik) who has LITERALLY turned into another very important role model and inspirational figure for me, everything about him is so incredibly humble and down to earth, he's really one of the sweetest guys in the NBA and that makes me feel good about myself giving me even more positivity and positive energy for me to capitalize on daily. he really is something special and I knew that from the moment I first saw him on the court over 2 months ago on a day that I was sick with my spirits completely down at the time, he brought my spirits up tremendously that day and it hasn't stopped since. he brought me back up when I needed it the most and I am forever thankful for this, when I thought I was going to give up on myself I'd just think about him and all the good he does for community and the people who are fans of him and it immediately wiped all that negativity of even thinking about doing so away completely and I haven't experienced any negative thoughts and/or energy since then. he saved my life and I feel like I owe him something, I know this probably makes me sound like a loon lol!!! (literally poking fun at myself like I always do) but this is absolute truth, he is literally one of the most positive people I know of in the sports world and that inspires me daily to be the same on a constant basis. writing this is making me emotional in the good way and I'm fine with that as he has shown me to be ok with tapping into your emotions and letting all the good positive thoughts come to the surface. I love how he takes time for his fans and makes their day completely special and something to remember and that sticks with me, and now I may have found and pinpointed exactly what that something is about him that I really like after taking me over a month to figure it out hahaha!!! it's his personality and the way he lights up a room with that smile of his, the way he's so upbeat and positive and doing the community work while talking to fans and taking time out of his day for them. I knew there was a reason why I liked him and now it has come to the surface what that finally was.there's a possibility you might not see this Kelly, but if you ever do honey just know I'm constantly thinking about ya everyday and thankful to ya for keeping my light of positivity always shining daily. I knew I liked and still like you for a reason. you are in my heart and for very good reason, you have earned it completely. LOVE YOU KELLY!!! from one of your newest biggest fans, Meg.

Social Anxiety Struggles

I thought I'd do a little something different for this post, about my daily struggles with social anxiety and shyness that my mother DOESN'T seem to damn understand while trying to use one of my favorite young actors as an excuse to be so unaccepting of this fact. I, for one, am getting SO TIRED of this damn ridiculous bullticky with this misunderstanding behavior she is displaying. she needs to accept the fact that I'm not the outgoing daughter with everyone that she thinks I am, but one person who has been my light through this and he will most likely never know is Frank Dillane the young actor I was referring to above that my own mother uses an excuse to not accept facts with this. it is really nice to know that there is another person out there, besides me who suffers from the same exact thing as I do and that makes me feel just a little bit better knowing that. I have not been having the best of things as of late, because one of my close friends on facebook fell down some stairs in his house and landed on concrete which has put him in a vegetative state he can't even move or talk and I have not been taking it well since my other friend told me last month. this has just added onto my social anxiety even more and I've only told my mom, I haven't told anyone else about my friend Taylor. speaking of Frank, he really has inspired me in a way I couldn't possibly explain if I even tried. he's basically shown me that it's ok to have social anxiety and it's ok to be shy with it, and for that I try to do the best that I can to deal with it the best way I know how trying to push on with life and cope with it, as that's all you can really do when you've got something like this. big crowds are what I have the most trouble with and so does he, I saw a video of him at a Comic Con somewhere in California last year and he was having some trouble with that too. I literally felt so bad for him because there were so many people there, I wish I could meet him and the rest of his Fear The Walking Dead castmates and regular hang out with them and try to have a conversation. I have not lost hope on that happening and I will not give up hope on that wish coming true either, never stop believing is something I strongly go by on a daily basis. which means I'm ok with my optimism that I have, as I'd rather be that than an absolute pessimist like some people I've seen in different places.

well, that's about all for now until my next post. love you guys!!! sincerely, Meg.

this is a pic of Frank Dillane right here, one of my favorite photos of him.

ok, so this isn't going to be too long. but this is a random rant. I am TIRED of the changes that keep happening on youtube!!! it's ticking me off like the constant changes on facebook that keep happening. I DO NOT like the new comment system that is present on YT. I can't even comment properly now because of it. I swear I'm thinking about either deleting the backup account I have and starting fresh. or resort to not using it that much. I am really sick of it when I've already got enough of my own grief as it is, and this has just added to it.