Social Anxiety Struggles

I thought I'd do a little something different for this post, about my daily struggles with social anxiety and shyness that my mother DOESN'T seem to damn understand while trying to use one of my favorite young actors as an excuse to be so unaccepting of this fact. I, for one, am getting SO TIRED of this damn ridiculous bullticky with this misunderstanding behavior she is displaying. she needs to accept the fact that I'm not the outgoing daughter with everyone that she thinks I am, but one person who has been my light through this and he will most likely never know is Frank Dillane the young actor I was referring to above that my own mother uses an excuse to not accept facts with this. it is really nice to know that there is another person out there, besides me who suffers from the same exact thing as I do and that makes me feel just a little bit better knowing that. I have not been having the best of things as of late, because one of my close friends on facebook fell down some stairs in his house and landed on concrete which has put him in a vegetative state he can't even move or talk and I have not been taking it well since my other friend told me last month. this has just added onto my social anxiety even more and I've only told my mom, I haven't told anyone else about my friend Taylor. speaking of Frank, he really has inspired me in a way I couldn't possibly explain if I even tried. he's basically shown me that it's ok to have social anxiety and it's ok to be shy with it, and for that I try to do the best that I can to deal with it the best way I know how trying to push on with life and cope with it, as that's all you can really do when you've got something like this. big crowds are what I have the most trouble with and so does he, I saw a video of him at a Comic Con somewhere in California last year and he was having some trouble with that too. I literally felt so bad for him because there were so many people there, I wish I could meet him and the rest of his Fear The Walking Dead castmates and regular hang out with them and try to have a conversation. I have not lost hope on that happening and I will not give up hope on that wish coming true either, never stop believing is something I strongly go by on a daily basis. which means I'm ok with my optimism that I have, as I'd rather be that than an absolute pessimist like some people I've seen in different places.

well, that's about all for now until my next post. love you guys!!! sincerely, Meg.

this is a pic of Frank Dillane right here, one of my favorite photos of him.